I vividly remember my mother telling me a story of her first experiences as a parent. There’s one I recall specifically where I was playing in the bathtub as a toddler when I discovered my vulva.
According to my mother, I was intrigued. I poked, prodded, and pulled at it. I even invited her to come see the new treasure I had discovered. Concerned, my mother asked my pediatrician if this was normal behavior; the pediatrician told her it was.
With that, my mother left me to my journey of self-exploration. My fascination with my feminine anatomy has yet to end.
I learned to please myself long before anyone else had the opportunity.
Way back then, masturbation was not a sexual experience for me. At least, I did not see it that way.
Back then, I’d lie in the darkness, place my hands between my opened legs and gently massage my clitoris until my entire body would quake in pleasure. I’d feel so relaxed and fall quickly asleep. I use it for this very same purpose now.
At this stage of my life, this experience has served a climactic role in exploring the full range of my sexuality.
The Birth of a Sex Blog
While researching and contemplating whether or not I would even launch PPLB, I did at least fifty Google searches on various phrases relating to female sexuality. I came across one post in particular on the blog SexLoveLiberation.com where its author, Ev’Yan Whitney, explores 14 Qualities of the Sexually Liberated Woman. I love that post so much. In fact, I love her entire blog, and I encourage you to visit.
I, on the other hand, am more interested in exploring how the sexually liberated woman comes to be; how the sexually liberated woman is created. Is she in the words of the famous Lady GaGa song “born this way” or is she in some way, carefully cultivated?
As long as I’ve known my sexual self, inhibition has been almost nonexistent. Perhaps this can be attributed to my mother allowing me to explore myself without ridicule or judgment.
I grew up in a small town filled with religious folk so in spite of my lack of inhibition, I was very, very cautious. In retrospect, I couldn’t really verbalize it, but I knew exactly the type of person I wanted in my life. The intuitive practice of allowing myself to choose those individuals has brought me deep intimacy love, respect, and support. That does not mean that I have not been without some choices that have resulted in epic failure.
Unlike the stories I have read about other women, I did not think sex was wrong in any context. I did not feel guilty about the desire to express myself sexually nor was sex this awful, non-orgasmic experience lacking in psychological stimulation. Not at all.
From the earliest moments of my sexual debut, although a bit insecure about the act itself, I was open, comfortable, and confident in who I was and what I desired. I was fortunate to share my experience with individuals who were excited about my openness and eager to assist me in exploring my sexuality at all depths and detours.
I’ve never felt guilt around my sexual expression, but shame was something different. There was no shame in the act itself but rather in being “found out”; a shame that I am now over coming.
There may be no road map to how one becomes a sexually liberated woman however, these are the things I’ve noted in my personal journey.
- Self-Love in its psychological, spiritual, and physical form
- Being open and confident
- Granting yourself permission to explore your sexuality
- Having a genuine, separate interest in sex and love
- Communicating your desires clearly to yourself, to your partners, and to the Universe
- Having the courage to be sex positive and an advocate for open sexual expression
The journey of exploring my sexuality has been overflowing with the most amazing thrills and pleasures that every woman should experience before ascending.
I’ve only been hesitant on whether I would share these experiences. Although I am a woman who has actively sought out my desires in the sexual arena, I still hold many of the concerns that most women hold. The concerns of being slut shamed, disrespected, or feeling devalued.
Favorably, I have had the support and encouragement of those I am closest with and know me as the beautiful, intelligent, empathetic, open, loving, smart, amazing, maternal, sensual spirit that I am. I appreciate you.
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